My brain turns you into monsters
Taking little pieces of my flesh
And turning me into a change you should be making yourself
My body a doormat you wipe your feet on
Leaving dirt
And wet leaves
I can’t tell if its’ you or me because
in my mind they are the same
as I I recoil into the moss
wrap its damp around my torso
and let myself sink…
the weight of guilt
a diamond in my chest
a treasure to be held onto
the only thing left
I am trying to save you
As I use the last reserves of strength to hold you up
Whilst beneath my legs snap
And my breath comes no more
I step into the beige
And become one with it
I wear the mask of a maniac
My laughter hot on your ears
As I soak you in
And try to make sense of you
So, I can spit you out again
And make people vomit.
Do you mind if I light a cigarette?
Because I have seen the slow death and already it has me
This is not a relapse of the flesh.
I have not drank from the cup of sin
Because the sin is inside of me
And I no longer need a sip to reveal my true self.
Amazing and beautiful. It’s a bit like your brain is a paintbrush and you’re painting vivid scenes.
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Thank you….that’s a lovely way to put it.
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I’m not a practicing alcoholic, I just don’t really stopped enjoying it and it was extremely rare for me to touch the stuff. My big thing is codependency. I’m a recovering codependent with ten years under my feet, and I still struggle at times. I write poetry and lyrics, and either seek motivation without or within. That’s my outlet.
Be proud of who you are, the road you’ve traveled, the progress you’ve made, the internal growth, and how it has affected the lives around you. You know those sparklers that one lights that shine brightly and shoot sparks everywhere? That’s you. Sparkle on!
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